Posted by Andrew
Mon, 06 Mar 2006 14:58:00 GMT
That pretty much sums it up at the moment… I’m feeling all over the place, and rather tired. Somehow I get the feeling a lot of it isn’t going to be solved by a good night’s sleep, which is what concerns me. I’ll try and fill you in, and not be too rambly, ranty or whatever, but you’ll have to forgive me, I’m not at my most coherent at the moment. This is the first of a possible four posts I have bouncing around in my head at the moment, how many of those actually make their way out, I just don’t know.
As you may know, I have some fairly diverse passions. Those are, most simply put: Audio/Music, Photography and technology. They’re fairly well developed passions, and a lot of that is owed to my parents who have assisted me morally and financially along the way. The problem is, while I feel that my passions are developed, I also feel like they’re stalled. There are both financial, time and motivational factors in this, but to a great extent it’s true.
Right now, it just feels like my life is stalled. I’m stuck at school for another six months, just so I can get a couple of pieces of paper that say that I can remember stuff which I’m never going to use again for an exam. Wow. I know why everyone loves it. Problem is, I don’t even know if I want to go to uni. While people insist that it’s worth it, if only for the community, I think screw it, there are better ways of forming community.
Right now, I would like nothing better than to pack up my laptop, my camera, my mic and other assorted audio gear, and my djembe and head off into a third or second world country and do something worthwhile. Something that isn’t sitting in my maths class, bored out of my skull, or in my english class, frustrated by the irrelevant sylabus. You get the idea. I could be a star performer at school. I proved that in year seven. When I was motived (delusional) I did awesomely well. Now, I have no motivation. I have no purpose in school, except to finish.
What do I do with that? I wish I knew? My current position is to plod through and finish this year, just for those hallowed certificates, then work for six months or so and then travel, for as long as I can support myself. I want to record, photograph and write throughout my time away, documenting what I see and hopefully inspiring others. The system says this isn’t what I should be doing. The System says I should apply myself for this whole year, get a 95+ UAI, go to uni, rack up some HECS debt and spend the next age paying it off.
Screw that. I don’t want to be part of the system. It’s not that I want to arbitrarily rebel against the system, or anything like that. The plain and simple fact is that doing things the way the system wants me to do them would be like giving away my soul. The way things are meant to happen directly opposes the way I feel like I’m built. Perhaps I’m impatient, perhaps I should wait and do what I’m told, but at the moment, I don’t see the point.
I’m just as qualified as anyone to go into a country and help out, whether that’s simple labour, photography, writing, or even audio engineering/music. I don’t much care. I just want to do something.
Now that’s off my chest, you can recover, and so will I. Perhaps another few posts, (less heated, less ranting, more directed) will come tonight, perhaps not. I don’t know. We’ll all find out soon enough.
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Posted by Andrew
Sun, 12 Feb 2006 15:44:00 GMT
Well, no, that’s not really going to happen, I just typed it as a title to spur myself on into writing some sort of genius laden post. I’ve been lacking inspiration in so many areas, from my four compositions I have to do for music at school, to articles for mootPointer, to basically anything.
Add to that the fact that my Powerbook is getting fixed, and my iPod took an unfortunate swim and is no longer with us (I’m afraid to touch my camera, because it might explode or something), I’m not feeling too great. Oh, and also I have a lovely little cold to throw into the mix. Much fun. I’ve been trying to find some way to make this blog interesting, and I’m failing, but I have just had a crazy idea, which may lead to some interesting results….
More on this tomorrow, perhaps. For now, I suppose that is all. Maybe I’ll post some emo junk or something tomorrow, who knows…
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Posted by Andrew
Thu, 09 Feb 2006 19:54:00 GMT
Hello there, you might remember me from such blogs as Synapsys and the previous three incarnations of mootPointer. If you have not been paying attention, or missed these earlier installments, you would know that I’m a horribly inconsistent blogger. This is further evidenced here. What fun!
In any case, I have a few projects up my sleeve and a new site which will hopefully be launched in the next week (although the temp page has had 78 unique visitors in the last 6 days, five times the amount this site sees.
I have one or two how-tos up my sleeve and I might post a photo or two later tonight…. Until then, you can live on this, or die trying :P
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Posted by Andrew
Mon, 23 Jan 2006 14:41:00 GMT
Probably worth mentioning it that we made it home to Sydney safely, and I’m back at home. I still don’t feel like I can make a full report as yet, but I really do plan to. I SWEAR I WILL!
This is possibly partially because my head hasn’t reached home yet. I’m almost running on autopilot at the moment. I am doing all the things I used to do, I still flick the fridge door the same way with my foot to close it, I still remember all the numbers for all the channels (I have cable, I didn’t think I’d forget good old 2, 7, 9, 10) but I don’t feel like I can really connect with Sydney yet mentally.
I suppose it’s the classic thing. After seeing such poverty and feeling like I’m doing something worthwhile in South Africa, I have to come back and do stuff to prepare for school and stuff. After being faced with people 24/7, it’s weird to go back to my relative solitude again.
I don’t know…
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Posted by Andrew
Wed, 28 Dec 2005 15:14:00 GMT
Yeah, so I haven’t posted in over a week. It’s the silly season, you’ll get drunk and get over it in no time. Or you won’t get drunk and you’ll get over it, whatever takes your fancy. As to why I haven’t posted in over a week? Well I’ve been working 8 hour days when I can, and that takes a bit out of you, after coding or thinking about coding or talking about coding for 8 hours, one doesn’t really want to write much of anything.
I’ve been having a good time, and been gaining real experience at work. I have a pretty good working knowledge of Ruby on Rails, the new programming framework on the block which has everyone talking. It’s really cool, it does a lot of what PHP does over hundreds of lines in just a few. All it’s database logic is hidden below your model code and your view code is nice and clean thanks to the pretty MVCness.
Of course, I’d guess that a lot of you would be bored with all this programming talk. I can understand that. In that case I’ll talk about me. I’m heading off for South Africa in 6 days with the Children’s Prayer Network which is a pretty big thing. I’m going to be doing some sort of camp with some guys who have come off the streets, it’s a pretty daunting idea. I don’t know how much I have to offer, but we shall see.
If you want me to post more often, you can donate to the Andrew Harvey Foundation for Delinquent Children. If you don’t have any money, then get some of whoever you can :P
As our coverage of the Nat saga continues, it has been reported that Nat has been rampaging around with some sort of “Nail Shining” device with which she has been taking men’s sense of masculinity. Police are warning men not to approach her as she is “Armed and dangerous” and that they have a special taskforce on the case.
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